Imbalanced World_action over nuetrality

One of the perplexing aspects which also happens to be the most visible one in this world, happens to be the dissimilarity and the paradoxes that exist.More than its existence the revelation of these is more perplexing, for they seem to be always existing and only manifest before our eyes ( rather we realize ) only on some specific instances. There are couple of things about these that bother me. 

The first one their very existence. I fail to fathom why the Grand Master has designed or allowed these dissimilarity to creep into his creation. I would not want to tow onto the line of evolution which would might be provide an answer for the differences but would question the existence of the Supreme. I do have enough proofs and more than that Faith that there exists The ONE all above us. So why did HE allow this ? was it in the initial plan or crept in at a later stage. Does it  have the similarity to Newton's first law of motion, wherein things are at rest or uniform motion until an external force acts upon. So did something happen as the time passed by that has created dissimilarities in the world GOD has created. In spite of the origin the fact is HE knows. So what does HE want us to do in regard to these dissimilarities. When I look into my own life i seem to be sometimes the reason, others the bearer and many other times a neutral to these.

This is where I have my other troubling thought.We seems to be in a quite peculiar state of "Knowing but not realizing". We are not ignorant of the dissimilarities, but many a time we do not realize them. Either we support because of the advantage, rant when dealt a raw hand, and in most of the cases do not care. The first two i give it the the cyclic law of balancing but the aspect of being neutral is what disturbs me. These dissimilarities might be caused because of someone at advantage or others lagging behind due to various reasons, but their survival is surely on those larger group of neutrals.

This is where I see the purpose of GOD, not to remain neutral but to try even the things.This thought to look at the world beyond neutrality would reveal these imbalances to us. To view and to action, as in the movie " Evan Almighty" , One Act of Random Kindness, all it takes is one act towards restoring the balance back. And that could be anyone. GOD is the original equal opportunity provider :-)

Let Go

Man seems to forever in chase and pursuit ,in spite of the things he currently has.  Does it have any thing to do with the nomadic early life style where in man was forced to be in pursuit of food and a comfortable place to dwell , is left to debate. What amuses me is that it never ceases. There have many a scholarly works on this aspect hence i would not dwell much into man and his never ending desire. But the thought I am pondering over is how many times or at which point does man realize that the pursuit is futile. This thought was something i pondered earlier as well, one such reflection being my write up "False Hope".That was a more optimistic approach, where in I felt pursuit was of paramount importance, but over the years I realized that more than " Ceaseless pursuit " the understanding to "Let go" is a more viable and more apt thing to do. However that's where the trouble is. 

Pursuing something needs grit, and a never say die attitude, but in many a cases a foolish stubbornness can also be disguised under the aforesaid wonderful words. But the intelligence to let go things seems to be something we cannot disguise or dupe.Apart from those instances of despair where you feel defeated, it does take a bit of wisdom driven intelligence to know when to let go off things. Even in the moment of despair the realization that this is it and letting go things is better than clinging foolishly and bearing further loss.

This is something I myself ought to learn, there are many a things that I ought to let go and many others that I am yet to realize. My nature in itself ought be tuned to this aspect. Might be the realization dawned upon me to think and scribble these words are the initial steps towards learnin

g to Let go things.

The Outsider_an unknown identity

Having no identity of his own, nor interested to have one,he strutted along in this mystic world. Those identities looked so narrow, sounded so funny to have one. The order of the society did not make much logic. Like a mirror does he reflect the people around him, like water does he assimilate into any thing that he is mixed up with.People loved him, admired him, treated him to be one of them.So did he reciprocate the love and the admiration. It did not matter who the other person was, for he himself did not consider to be any different. 

He was told of the differences in the world. The various class and creed that the society is made. Was many a time warned by his so called kin to be careful. But his vision of humanity was different. For him all were humans, being part of a larger good. The acceptance he got made him believe in the humanity, so did he threw a wry smile at his kin , who said he would always be linked to this identity. He was no less than any one he met, one of the finest that you would get. There was no aspect of him which would show any sign of being any lower, as the society would dictate. But all through this, he still remained an enigma. Behind all the smiles and affection showered, the questions did linger in the minds of the people, as to what was his identity. 

Life does have stranger ways.

The order, proves to be too strong for any individual to defy. The thoughts do remain glorious, but the practicality of it ? the world does not appreciate it. In spite of his disdain for any identity, he is still categorized as one. Not based on his virtue, not on his deeds, purely basing on his birth. People still admire and love him, but not as one of their own . He never understood this paradox. 

He draws a similarity from the nature,The crow never seems to appreciate the cuckoo for its virtue, for it is not its breed. The worse part, he was never the replaced egg, or does the world treat him to be one. Pondering on this paradox of the strange world, and not ready to live with the identity the world has bestowed, there seems to be one identity he would have to take and the one he seems to always be considered,,,,,The Outsider.

Wounded hope

Its been nearly half year, and how quickly the time does past. That fateful evening still remains to be a night mare. Etched in my memory like a wound which ought never heals. That sense of helplessness still grips me. Only thing I do not cry as much as I did earlier. It is not because I overcame the grief nor that I forgot it, purely because I no more have the strength to cry. I really cannot reconcile with self. All the conscious attempts that I made to overcome this have turned futile. I want to come out of this, I want to move on, or in reality DO I, really want to. The thought suddenly comes, irrespective of what I am doing, or where I am, rendering me helpless and making me to silently mourn. There have been heartbreaks earlier, but none which has been sustained for so long. I repent for every moment that I made you feel bad. It was that sense of confidence that I have you for life, made me a bit foolish in the way I did treat you. I just hope if only I did not waste those moments. I do eagerly waited for so long, just to meet you and see you for those couple of hours. Surely they were the happiest moments. I ever had. I am waiting dear, for past many months for you to just respond. I go about with an anticipation that might be I would see you. I know it is my stupidity to hope. I never really understood what transpired. Things happened so quickly that I still do not get a sense of reality. I do not want answers as to what has happened; I just want to see you, once. Time does not always heal.