Love You

I feel bad,,,, i feel hurt...how much i try to forget,the thoughts come back,making me vulnerable.They make me go to the verge of breaking down but somehow sanity prevails.But it is hurting me real bad.Every time i try to forget you something or the other reminds me of you.I do not understand what is it about you that i really cannot forget you.My pillow becomes wet thinking of you but cannot still make out why all the things transpired that made us so apart.I know i was foolish and was haste with quite a many things but everything was out the love for you.I many a times took it to a level irreconcilable but nearly every time we reconciled.But those last incidents do not know why you never gave a chance.Might be the pain inflicted all through had its final telling. Now our paths are different and might never meet but all those thoughts still linger making me ever restless. Never knew why the love and respect turned to state of despise.Nor would i ever get another chance to pour my heart out.I know now you are happy and eager to walk into the new life and it would not be right for me to try and relive those moments. might be i was never the right one for you. I never know if i would be able to ever forget you and move on nor do i know if this would be lost in the obscurity of time.But this feeling of unfullfillment would surely haunt me.A second thought would have made our association much happier than the suffering we felt together.Nevertheless dear i believe at some point you realise i was not as foolish or bad as it turned out to be.

Love you for all those moments you gave me and for the second wind your companionship has brought to this wretched soul. Love you :-)