Over the course of life, we come across many people, some stay with you for ever and some although with a minimal interaction, set a lasting effect. Few people, you choose to live with, and few you ought to virtue of relationship.
As in every ones case, even I went through the same and still going through, and had the privilege of meeting few of the finest and worth noting lives, at least to the gamut of the world i live day in and day out.
But particularly, there has been one life which has influenced me more than any one, and obviously it has to. Friends are bound to make a lasting impression than any one, especially the best friend, and truly i miss my best friend in my life, MY DAD.
Its been around 7 months, that he passed away, but i still cannot get over the fact, that he isn’t no more. the mark he left on me is much more than what a Father leaves on his son. At least for me he was not a father, or just a father, but truly speaking my soul. I miss my MOM, and when she passed away, i felt that was the greatest jolt in my life, and than it lost some one, whom i loved the most, or some one who loved me the most, or as i feel the only one who loved me in spite of all my short comings.
But the loss of my Father, as I now start experiencing was something different form the loss of my Mom..
Mom, I miss the pampering or that warmth of motherly love. But as in Dad’s case it isn’t just the fatherly feeling, i miss him much more or different from that.
i happen to do something in the office, or outside, appreciation or any thing, I feel like sharing with someone, but I don’t have him any more, I miss him as a friend.
Something i feel like discussing, about the politics, religion etc,somthing I felt needs to be discussed, but i don’t have him any more. These days, I feel my thought process has staganted,that I don’t get that input which used to feed my thought, i miss my teacher, for the philosopher(i bet he was one), he has been, the source of all the thoughts which shaped me ,through this years, and continue to do so, even in his absence. but i truly miss that fountain of thought I so readily consumed, now i need to struggle, create my own source.
I many a times feel low, as always has been with me, but now I don’t find someone whom I can look up to, that live example which strode before me althrough my life, providing me that bit of inspiration to carry forward, i miss him , my ever true mentor.
Dad i miss you, i miss you more than any thing else in life. I always thought I loved mom, and respected you, but off late realized, it was something more than love or respect i have for you, I don’t know what that feel is, but truth is I miss you Dad, I miss you!!!
